Pokerless Life

I haven't been playing at all for about the last two weeks. I just really have no desire to play right now, and usually when I am feeling like that and still play, I do very poorly. I never posted my numbers for September, but I had a very good month, for me, being up over 15k. This makes me wonder why I still have no motivation to play any poker since that is one of my better months this year. I think that the reason for this lack of motivation is a number of things, one of them being that the money no longer motivates me. Actually, This is a very good thing for me because a poker player needs to detach himself from the day-to-day, month-to-month swings of the game. The fact that the money makes no difference says that I am doing a pretty good job of detaching my emotions. On the other hand, I can't help but wonder what would happen if I had a losing month. That has never happened to me in my career, but I know that it inevitably must happen at some point. Would the money, or significance of losing the money, make me feel different emotions? I think that it probably would because I remember that I still get frustrated when I have losing days. I am not sure if it would motivate me to play though, if I had a losing month. I'm afraid that it would do the opposite and I would be less likely to play..... wow, I am just rambling nonsense that nobody, or very few people, would even be interested in. I should keep a diary of stuff like this for myself and leave my blog for stuff that is actually interesting to the 100 or so of you who consistently check it. hmmmm, let me find a funny picture to make it up to you.